there is something always here
                   except it's not a thing
            except when a seeming i thinks it is
              but that doesn't necessarily last
especially when "i" doubts the veracity of the notion of time
            which can happen at any (haha) moment
              the ineffable behind the withing
                      i am *that* i am
                 be still and know i am, god
                     it is but it isn't
 which is to say it's more isness/isn'tness than is or isn't
      trying to say it always covers <it is not an it>
                      now we're digging